Difficulty of Writing with Chronic Illness

I have a chronic illness and I suffered through covid a couple of weeks ago. I also started a challenging job 7/14/2022. I took this new job primarily for the income because inflation has hit our family hard.

Writing for me right now is difficult. It is not a joy or an escape, but it feels like trudging though mud. I am tired, and I’ve said out loud I don’t want to do it anymore.

From “The Neverending Story”, the horse Artax sinks in mud due to losing hope. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_NeverEnding_Story_(film)

In fact, most things feel hopeless right now. I don’t know if it’s the job, my health, my inability to write, or all of it piling on top of me. I continue to talk to my counselor, online, when I can and participate in my online anxiety support group, but I feel isolated.

I don’t have motivation to participate in life, and since I got covid I’m scared to go out in groups that aren’t outdoors. I don’t know when this feeling will pass, and I’m scared for the intrusive thoughts I’ve had.

I hope this feeling passes and I feel like writing again. I wrote this and I hope getting these feelings out helps.

1 Comment

  1. “I don’t know if it’s the job, my health, my inability to write, or all of it piling on top of me.” – Exactly how I’ve been feeling and why I haven’t been doing much on my podcast or blog myself. It doesn’t help that {gestures at the state of the world}.

    I know we already talked about this via Facebook, but just a reminder that it’s not just you. The whole world is going through some stuff, and we’re all trying to do things one day at a time. Hugs.

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