I have a chronic illness and I suffered through covid a couple of weeks ago. I also started a challenging job 7/14/2022. I took this new job primarily for the income because inflation has hit our family hard.
Writing for me right now is difficult. It is not a joy or an escape, but it feels like trudging though mud. I am tired, and I’ve said out loud I don’t want to do it anymore.
In fact, most things feel hopeless right now. I don’t know if it’s the job, my health, my inability to write, or all of it piling on top of me. I continue to talk to my counselor, online, when I can and participate in my online anxiety support group, but I feel isolated.
I don’t have motivation to participate in life, and since I got covid I’m scared to go out in groups that aren’t outdoors. I don’t know when this feeling will pass, and I’m scared for the intrusive thoughts I’ve had.
I hope this feeling passes and I feel like writing again. I wrote this and I hope getting these feelings out helps.