The slow path

I haven’t written much or done much theatre viewing since the pandemic, and my last post on this blog was 2022, but I’ve continued to pay for hosting.

I’ve realized about my writing and my work is I don’t have a large drive to keep pushing to force out work or push for lots of opportunities. I have a variety of chronic illnesses and I’ve just finished with a surgery, and I’m getting something else checked out in a couple of weeks.

My job, which I’m grateful for, is emotionally draining. I don’t have a lot of energy outside of work. I wish I didn’t have to work, and I spend a lot of time wishing I didn’t have to work since it’s so emotionally tiring. I try to not take it home with me, but it’s a work from home job, so I try to stay out of the office when I’m not working, which makes writing difficult. We do have a small desk in the bedroom but it’s not very comfortable.

I’m going to the Midwest Dramatists conference in the end of September and I’m seeing Michelle Tyrene Johnson’s play at the Coterie so I am looking forward to those two events.

I don’t drive at night wherever possible, but a dear friend of mine has advised she’ll take me if I think of things to go to so I’m keeping that in mind. I feel like a hermit and I stay at home too much, but I just don’t have the energy to do too much, which is a combo of my health and the energy drain from my job.

Theatre is important to me, but I don’t have the drive or the energy to see everything that is out there. I will see what I can when a matinee is available, or go with my friend at night, but I have to conserve my energy and only do what I can. I’m limited. I’ve decided to just take the slow path and do what I have energy for.